Friday, November 04, 2005

'75 Chevy Scottsdale...a story in the life of...

It was a maroon Scottsdale, one step above a the Custom line. Vinyl seats, no air, AM radio, two-wheel drive. Basically, a no frills truck that served Dad well. He bought it new in '74, and we drove it long and hard until it died under me one afternoon close to 20 years later.

It was the first vehicle our family had that ran on Unleaded. It killed Dad to have to play close to a nickle more per gallon, so, he talked with Denny at the garage, and Denny did a few little illegal fixes that made the truck unsellable. I watched as the small, wiry master mechanic took a sand point well tip and drove it into the filler pipe, making it big enough to to accept the nozzle of the Regular pump. I can't remember what else he did, but, Dad drove out two hours later and never put Unleaded in the beast again.

Six months after Dad brought the truck home, we were doing some field work. When Dad bought the farm, it was split into sections--one area for cattle, one for pigs, another for sheep, and about 10 acres of field. The first thing Dad did was sell off the sheep and refenced their pastures for cattle. Some of the cattle pasture then became fields, and by the time I was four, we were completely livestock free. Well, we didn't have any livestock on our own, but we rented out the pasture land for almost ten more years. But, then, Dad decided that he didn't want livestock anymore--he just wanted fields. So, we started pulling up fences.

Sheep fence, at least around where I'm from, looks like a mesh made of galvanized wire, the holes four inches by four inches. If sheep aren't grazing around the fencelines, the canary grass grows into it, twineing it into the ground. By the time we started rolling that stuff, we hadn't had sheep for almost fifteen years. I asked Dad once about how much of that shit was on the farm, and he estimated close to six miles.

I think he guessed low.

Anyway, after pulling the staples from the posts and yanking the posts from the ground, Dad and I would take the truck or tractor along the line and pick up the posts before rolling the fence. I was 10 at the time that April afternoon, and Dad looked at me.

"Think you can drive?"

"Huh?," I replied, shocked that Dad asked.

"Think you can drive?"

"I....I...I...think...I can. Yeah!"

The adrenalin was pumping hard and fast as he motioned me to scoot across the seat. He reached down, pulled the seat forward so I could reach the pedals and steer (and see over the dash board through the steering wheel). It wasn't like I'd never driven before. Hell, I'd been driving the tractor since I was old enough to sit on the seat. Granted, to push the clutch in, I needed to stand on it, but, I could still drive. I got settled in and Dad gave me a quick set of instructions.

"Keep it down here in D1. Don't shift at all. That's the gas, that's the brake. Now, you don't have a radiator cap to steer by, but, if you basially track down the left side of the driveway, you'll do okay. If I lift my hand like this..." Dad lifted his hand like a cop directing traffic..."I want you to stop as fast as you can. Think you can do this?"

"Yeah!" I was excited, and scared, and soaked up everything Dad told me.

Dad went to the left side of the truck and picked up the cedar post lying on the edge of the ditch, dropping it in the bed. After picking up two more and tossing them in as well, he pounded on the back corner of the truck and yelled, "okay. Pull ahead. And GO SLOW!" My foot eased off the pedal and I let the engine ease the truck ahead. It rumbled along like a giant bug, and Dad kept walking alongside. It wasn't hard for him to keep up, reaching down and picking up, tossing them in. Finally, we got to the end of the driveway, and I hit the brake. Dad turned and looked at me, pulled out his pack of Pall Malls, lit up and then opened the passanger door.

"Why'd ya stop?"

"I can't drive on the road. Can I?"

Dad looked at me for a moment, then stood, and looked down the road to the south, then back up to the north. No one was on the gravel road, and he pulled the cigarette from his mouth, using it as a pointer. "Just give it a slow turn, and when you think the truck has gone far enough, let the wheel go until it's going straight again. Just keep going like you are and it'll be alright."

"You sure?"

"Jesus. Yes, dammit. Do it."

He closed the door and motioned for me to start again. I took a deep breath, then, eased my foot off the brake. The truck rolled around the corner and until the township road that lead to our farm, and we continued to harvest those posts. A quarter mile to the County Corner (the northwest corner of our farm was where three counties all came together), then turned east onto the Swamp Road. When we got to the gravel pit entrance, Dad motioned for me to pull in. I turned onto the narrow road bordered by a fairly heavy stand of hardwoods, and I had to give the motor a bit of gas to make it up the hill. Over the crest and into the pit, and Dad called for me to stop.

"Okay, I'll take it from here." I moved back to the passanger side and Dad took the road that skirted the pit and then went through the woods, eventually ending back up in the back yard next to the post pile. "We'll take care of this after supper. C'mon." And after supper, we unloaded and went back out and picked up another load of posts.

After that, I'd ask Dad if I could drive quite a bit. Depending where we were and what the weather was like, he'd agree. The second time I drove was home from the neighbor's, and when I got to the end of our driveway, I oversteered, paniced, and drove right into the ditch. Once I got the truck stopped, Dad looked at me, pulled out a cigarette, and then, in a very calm voice, asked..."What happened?"

"I paniced?" Inside, I was dying. Dad was never that calm. Why wasn't he yelling? Why didn't he just reach over and rip off my...

"Yeah. I can tell." He took a long pull on the cigarette. "Well. Just don't sit there. Go get the tractor."

"Okay!" I jumped out of the truck, got up on the driveway, and ran up that hill as fast as I could--ran the entire quarter mile up that steep hill, got the tractor, and made sure there was a chain on the platform.

When Mom asked Dad what happened, he laughed and said, "the kid paniced."

*****


Over the years, that truck went through a hell of a lot of abuse. For a long time, the speedometer cable was broken. The radio died. Did a Lazarus. Died again and stayed dead. The weatherstripping around the passanger door continously came loose and had to be pushed back into place. The rear leaf springs had to be replaced (Dad put in springs from a 3/4 ton pickup instead). The key broke off in the ignition, so, all you needed was the door key to get it rolling. And like many Chevy trucks of that era, it developed a bad case of cancer.

Put, it kept running.

Towards the end, it got a bit harder to start. It sometimes was tempermental. But, regardless of how cold it was outside, given enough time and following the ritual of perpectual ignition, it'd cough and spit and roar into life.

Sister troll #1 was going to till Gram's garden one day early in the summer of '93, but she needed to get the Troy-bilt from her place to town. I joked that since the tiller was self-powered, all she really needed to do was start it and go. Finally, I agreed to grab the maroon beast and help her out. It started with a bit of hesitation and a blast of oil smoke, and took off. About halfway there, I turned from one road to another, stepped on the gas...

...and nothing...

The truck coasted to its death right there at the corner of County Roads 4 and 12. The worst part of that was that I was going uphill, and ended up coasting backwards trying to steer without power anything. I walked to one of the places up the road a piece, called Dad, and told him where I was. He showed up a bit later, and after checking all the fuses and the battery and everything else, we still couldn't get the truck to start. We hooked the tow strap to the Suburban and the truck, and Dad towed me home.

That was the beasts last ride until one of the neighbors bought it from Dad. He dropped a different moter in, drove it less than a 100 miles before the rearend dropped out. It went to the crusher not long after that.

*****


Haven't thought about that truck for a long time. For some reason, though, this morning, I had a long, long dream that I now owned and drove the old Maroon Beast. Yeah. It's all good.

Monday, October 31, 2005

I should have given a test tonight

I knew that 7 people from my class of 23 were going to be gone tonight. Six of the seven are on a clinical placement--part of their main program of study. One is trick-or-treating with her kids since her husband is in Iraq. But...where the rest of the students were is beyond me. I had three of 16 in class. What the hell is up with that???

Well...all I know is that the students that were in class tonight will all get a five point bump in the grade book.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Late Papers

I'm reading through papers--the papers turned in late. I spent last Sunday reading the papers that were turned in on time, and thankfully, there are only seven to do today. But...

I'm not taking them anymore. Nope. Not going to happen. I'm setting a deadline, and anything that comes in after that is not going to be read. The last two I've read have made me decide that. If they were of better quality--if the students had taken the time to actually make sure they were the best papers possible, I'd feel differently.

That just isn't the case this time. This time, the papers have all the same errors, if not more, that I noted on the first round of papers. This time, the errors are more blatant. This time, they're not showing that they processed ANYTHING from the first round.

So...

No late papers.

I wonder how they'll like those bananas.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Tastes

It's one of those evenings where I'm not quite sure what I want to have for supper. There's a Pizza Hut pizza in the fridge, along with a kettle of venison stew. I could order Chinese or a burger...but...none of that really sounds...good.

It's been a while since I've stopped through here...I keep forgetting to stop in. Soon, though, I'm going to post a few pieces that I've been working on over the last months, as well as adding some new writings as well. And...I'll be including some pictures as well.

But, right now, it's time to pack up and head for home. Monster Garage is on in 15 minutes.

Peace.

Monday, March 28, 2005

I want to sell my sisters to the gypses

About two years ago, I decided that when I turned 40, my gift to myself would be doing something fun--something for me. I decided that I'm going to change my name--not completely change it, but I'm going to add two names to the one my father and mother gave me at birth.

After all--my first name is not after anyone that I know of--my middle name is my father's first name--but...no one in my family calls me by either names. I've ALWAYS been referred to by a totally different name.

Perhaps that's why I'm a stickler for being David and not Dave...

Anyway...I decided that I was going to add the name my family has called me all my life to the mix, as well as the name I've gone by for nearly half of my life. Not taking anything away. Just adding.

And...

My sisters, the trolls, have fuckin' freaked. All I've heard since I made this decision is how much it'll hurt Dad, and how much my name means to him...so much so that everytime I've tried to discuss this, they've basically gnashed their teeth...

Now...

Dad's sister Anna is getting weaker. He's left Arizona earlier than normal this year to be with her and his other sister, Lila, as they wait for Anna to make her final journey. This ALS crap is taking a lot out of the families--and of course, that's another thing I'm being bugged about--since I'm not there to see it every day, I MUST NOT CARE about anyone in the family.

Fuck.

Gypsies.

Or white slavers.

Hey...maybe I can get a trade-in on them!

Anyway...

Peace.

Friday, March 11, 2005

Birthdays and Coworkers

So, I typically am not on campus this semester before 9...hell, if I can help it, it's between 11 and 11:30. All my classes are in the afternoons...

Today, though, I'm here early proctoring a set of exams for my friend Brian. His father's funeral was yesterday, and I'm more than happy to do this for him. That's what friends do, right? (Fucker even said he'd buy me a bottle of wine--to which I gave him the big hairy eyeball and said "I don' think so, Lucy!")

Anyway...I hate traffic in this town between 7 and 8:30. Stop-and-flippin'-go the entire five miles from home to work. Not only that, but there's always the drivers of the Urban Assault Vehicles yakking on their phones while drinking coffee that want to drive in my lane as well as their own that makes it nerve racking! It took me about 5 minutes longer to get to work, and then, get everything from the car into the office...

Now...I share an office with two other people. I like it. It's big, roomy, overly-bright, and pale, but...I like it. I also like the people I'm sharing an office with. Good people, Shannon and Jags. But, this morning, I pop open the door...and there's this...

smell...

and...

presence...

With a great bit of trepidation, I flip on the light...knowing I'd been pranked...but, also wondering if they decided it was my turn to hide the body...and I see that my entire corner of the office has been draped.

Yup.

Draped.

Remember those people that would do 'drapeings' in the early '90's to find out what type of colors you have? Me, I'm an autumn or mid-spring.

My desk is death.

It's shrouded in black. My coworkers got black picnic table covers (ya know the type--plasticized paper--cheap, disposable, fill-the-landfill-crap) and made a hut. Not just the walls, mind you, but the put a flipping ceiling on it, too! There's black streamers all over...

And the best part?

They took random things from my desk and bookshelves, including my mouse, telephone books, keyboard, and my chair, and wrapped them in black crepe paper!

By this time, I'm just having a major giggle fit, and I look at the clock on the wall, and there IS no clock there! Instead, there's a big flippin' sign that says "Hut for the Terminally Aged."

I'm in tears by this time. Luckily, I was able to get into my desk without a problem, got Brian's tests out, and then, threw all my morning stuff onto my cart and wheeled to class.

After logging on, I sent the criminal friends that did this a quick note...

I want to know if they took pictures.

*LOLOL*

Sunday, February 06, 2005

More adventures in teaching

Thankfully, I only have a few papers left in this first round. Too many unacceptable ones. Too many cases of plagiarism. But, it's the first paper, so I expect to see some of this...just not this much...

Anyway, today...I get something completely new...two papers from two different students...writing on the same topic--which isn't uncommon, though these two picked something that isn't often taken...

Imagine my surprise when they are the same paper word for word! They even made the same citation mistakes...

Now, here's the kicker...one of the cites was for a website...so, I decided to check it out...and...it took me to...

A paper mill!


This wil be an interesting converstaion come Tuesday. *grin* And...I think that my paper guidelines will be changing soon...

Saturday, February 05, 2005

Class dynamics and statistics

I have three sections of Intro to Psyc, each one with 35 students registered. This is my norm for each semester. Each class has a different dynamic, and it makes each one a joy to go to because I never know what to expect!

Well...mostly it's a joy.

I handed back the first test in my MWF class yesterday, and I had the weirdest situation in my 10 years of teaching. Typically, when I look at the class grades, I'll get something that looks like a normal curve where a score of 80% is the midpoint (at the 70% line I have my 80-20 split with approximately 20% of the class getting d's and f's---not that I fix it there...it's just how it happens...there have been classes and tests where the line flexes greatly). I don't curve my tests, but I do make a statistical adjustment that I learned from one of my profs in grad school...it allows for a bit of fairness in that I'll never be a perfect test maker ('cuz I am human, right?)

Yesterday, I scored the exams, entered the grades, and looked at the distrubition of the scores...and I got what's called a camalback curve--and it was a dromedary. I had two peaks...one at about 62% and another at 86%...meaning I had a lot of high B's and A's and almost as many D's and F's. Out of 35 students, 4 got C's. That's typically how many A's I see in that course for that material (it's the toughest set of material--after this, the students have a better idea of how to study, too).

That class also has a group of students that are very dedicated to being in class and freak when they eed to miss a class. I like that. There is also a group of students and get up and leave during lecture--if they come at all. Hey...it's their loss, not mine...

Then, there's class two...I haven't entered their test grades yet--I don't meet with them until Tuesday--but I have read 1/3 of their papers so far. Out of the 10 I've read, I have two cases of possible plagiarism, three papers not read because they didn't meet the basic guidelines of the paper--they didn't put the effort out to follow the guidelines, why should I have to put out an effort to grade them?--two papers that were not satisfactory (one of those was based on a blog entry he made a month ago--what does that have to do with psychology--trust me, I checked the blog, and it has nothing to do with psychology!)--and three papers that were are very rough yet original work!

So...

On Tuesday, I'll hand back the first portfolio to that class. I'll hand back their first test. And we'll have a discussion about expectations. Consequences. And changes in perception. I'll be setting up appointments with the plagiarizers (sp?). I'll be setting up appointments with the ones that turned in papers that weren't read or did not come up to the basic level of expectation. And, I'll be speaking with the students that actually did the work--though its really rough, which is what I expect of their writing this early in the semester.

I just hope that I don't see a camalback distribution again

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Academic Dishonesty

Plagerism. I cover what it is in class. I tell people what the consequences are. I ask questions and get the proper responses. Yet...

I just read a paper from a student two other professors at school told me about (English comp and philosophy). Both told me that she has a habit of "borrowing" the work of other authors. Told me is very good at it. After being told this, I immediately forgot the student's name--not so much because I wanted to give her an even chance--but because I suck at remembering names.

This semester, I'm requiring the students to turn in their sources with their portfolios. This way, I can help them with citing and referencing, since this is often the most difficult part for my students.

So...

I start reading the paper, and in my first fast look through, I notice that there are the appropriate APA style in-line citations--check out the references page, and it looks pretty good--some minor problems, but easily solved. Back to the first page of text and reading for a score.

Very well written.

Exceptionally well written.

But--the citations in the text don't match those on the References page. I feel like I'm that kanagroo in the "End of the World" video Genghis Connee...erm...LaJaconde is so fond of..."WTF, mate?"

But, then, it gets even weirder...the paper takes a left turn and goes off into an area that Introduction to Psychology students wouldn't normally go...my writer starts discussing a totally different, but related concept that isn't discussed in my textbook and I don't cover in class...

It could be that she just lucked into it...but...that's why I have them include their sources...

I pull out the articles and it takes about five minutes, but I find every piece of information that I questioned. Every single piece lifted word-for-fucking-word. Including the in-line APA style citations.

Now, I dodn't remember if this is the student the other prof's warned me about...so, I give my bud a call and ask him...is this the chick?

Yup...it is.

Past behavior is the best predictor of future behavior. Now, I have to decide just how I'm going to handle this other than reporting her to the dean. Do I fail her on this assignment...or...fail her for the class? I have the right to do both, and since she has a history of plagerism...I'd be well within my rights to do so...

smiling

I think I'll wait to see what how she reacts when I drop this on the desk on Tuesday.

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Further Tales of the Barbie Killer

The Barbie Killer has been doing interesting things of late...and many of them are just annoying. This morning, she's pushed the books I've been working with off the desk and to the floor. She decided to take a nap on the keyboard of my laptop. And now, she's sleeping on the arm of my recliner.

A few minutes ago, I decided to give her some lovin's, so, I started petting and talking with her...and she wasn't ready for it nor very open to the attention! Her tail poofed out, ears went back, and eyes became slits for casting rays of irritation. I kept on petting her, then, pulled her into the crook of my arm with her belly up. She hates lying on my arm like that! I kept talking to her, rubbing her belly, watching those ears go further back and flatter still. After about a minute, she decided she had enough and tried to roll out and away...but, I kept her there...petting and talking to her.

Finally, I let her go, expecting her to run off.

She looks at me for a moment. Rolls over. And goes to sleep.

Laughing

She's such a little spaz.